It's a tough balance, wanting to be informed while checking in on your mental state. A balance that is a privilege to maintain.
Disabled people should be given the opportunity to participate in all spheres of life - and until we are able to say that this is a reality, we must collectively work to dismantle the systems which exclude us.
I was excluded at school because of disability – My experiences can teach us how to be more inclusive
You are worthy of belonging, and your disability does not imply otherwise. Remember that.